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 Sunday, June 29
How the hell did I become so completely invisible so fast? It makes my head spin just trying to figure out why. Really does make a lot of things crystal clear though.
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Saturday, June 28
Rock me like a hurricane
I think we need one. A storm's a brewin'.
I have a bed! It rocks, and it's a waterbed, but it's a really cool one. The cat can't pop it because the water is under lots of foam, and it doesn't need to be heated. It's super comfy to, not a sea sick type at all. and it was free!
So now I'll have this great big new bed in my fantastic new room where I can have lots of.......sleep. Wow, that's great.
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6/28/2003 04:46:00 p.m. ]
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Friday, June 27
The beach was nice tonight, so were the nacho's & drinks from the gahan. I wish that the moon could have been out, it would have improved the experience and made the bugs not so noticable.
Things seem to be changing all around me, and I think I should be a bit more worried. I'm not sure if I am though. But I wish there was something that wasn't.
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Thursday, June 26
You can join my little pity party
What a great invitation. They taught me how to pump the gas today. That's kinda cool, means I don't have to run after them if someone needs it.
I feel like I'm missing something here. I really do. Everyone seemes to be going about 10 zillion miles an hour, and I'm kinda sauntering along. There's just something niggling at my brain, and I feel that I will eventually end up getting really upset if it comes to pass. And I really don't blame me if I do at all.
I hope people are honest to me, even if it seems mean. I really don't need to be deceived or see a reason to deceive anyone else for any reason at all. It's not better or easier that way, in fact it's cruel.
I think that's my new goal. No, not to be cruel, but to be honest with people, and not let them think things are any different from what they really are. It could be hard.
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Wednesday, June 25
Beach was nice
Lots of macho guys walking around trying to figure out how to put up a pole...He he...
I really did want to go, and I'm glad I did. Other people seemed not to enjoy it as much, but, well, I guess that's ok. I can only do so much on my own.
Next time I treck out to the beach I want it to be one of those times where we all go waist deep in the water and throw around a frizbee or ball or something. then walk along the beach talking about nothing really at all and then back as the sun is setting and you can't really see cause it's so pretty and you're all dry and your feet feel really good cause the sand makes them soft.
I miss those times and it feels like they haven't happened in a long time. I have a lot to get back.
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6/25/2003 03:36:00 p.m. ]
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Tuesday, June 24
Tomorrow, 33 degrees. Wow. Definite beach day.
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6/24/2003 04:21:00 p.m. ]
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Boo, now I work thursday. Sucks. I don't work tomorrow though
I wish they''d keep it straight.
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Monday, June 23
Simple plan.
I want to go to the beach. I haven't been to the beach in ages, and now I wanna go. I want to swim and frig around, I want to walk, and I want to have a good time. Thursday is my day off so far, and it's going to be sunny and 25. You know none of you have no excuse (aside from those out of the province), and now you have an invitation... hint hint.... so give me a call and let me know.
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Sunday, June 22
Have made a discovery
Diet 7-up tastes like diet pepsi when you close your eyes. Tell your friends!
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6/22/2003 09:02:00 p.m. ]
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Now I think I really will be ok.
I feel about a million times better. All because of a much needed conversation, and it was completely well worth it. Brodie, you're a king among men, your advice and support helped me a lot, and I will never ever forget it. I guess I just couldn't stick with the rules, but I'm a lot happier for it, go fig.
I really do wonder why people would think I'd go Norman Banks on anyone. C'mon, it's me, and if I scare anyone, what does that say about them? I always get pissed at something I think isn't ok, but then it usually just fizzles and I hold on to it for a long time. I will let this go, if I haven't already. I feel like I can handle anything (well, almost), maybe all I did need was some time. I really didn't like feeling invisible for a while there though.
What I may not let go is the fact that the suction cup on my fish tank doesn't work. Damn it. I need it for the survival of my fry to protect them from their cannibalistic family. I kinda wonder how I think I'm going to get them all to the new house. I think I can be creative enough to pull it off. We'll see.
Ah, now, on to the paper.
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Thursday, June 19
I'm very proud of me during the day. I'm handeling it very well, in my opinion anyway. Nights are a totally different story. There are things I super miss already though. You may not have been good for too much lately, but the cuddling I will sincerely miss. You were very good for that. It's a little difficult to try to cuddle with the cat when he wants attention, he's got claws.
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Wednesday, June 18
Thanks, you guys rock. All of you. I know that an unhappy Tamsyn is very tempting to ignore and avoid (hell, I would) but you guys and girls are willing to put up with me, and that's more than some would. We'll have a party in my new house once I move out (oh yeah, in two weeks by the way). It's pretty cool. A little dirty as of yet, but cool none the less. And we need a 4th roomate for september. I'm trying very hard to stay super busy, so feel free to include me in plans, ok? One more time, thank you.
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6/18/2003 06:15:00 p.m. ]
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I don't think I'm going to be ok anymore.
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6/18/2003 08:46:00 a.m. ]
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Tuesday, June 17
so that's it is it? We're "at the end". Well I guess it was going to happen eventually. I just hope you realize what you've lost. And just how much pain you've put me through. There's no one else like me in the world.
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Thursday, June 12
Why does blogger not work?
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6/12/2003 09:57:00 p.m. ]
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Tuesday, June 10
I just picked up a cat and moved it out of the middle of the road outside of my house. I thought for an absolutely terrifying moment that it was my cat, because of the similar markings. It wasn't, and she was still warm. What a horrible and violent way to go, and then as a final insult, be left there to be run over again and again until all that's left is a raggy stain on the ashphalt. I know that when my last cat died, someone moved her off the road and put her in the ditch. I think it was easier for me to deal with seeing her that way. You can tell when you hit something, you can hear it and feel it. Why can some people not have the common decency and respect to simply move it off the road, or at least stay with it untill it dies. Karma's a bitch, and it will come back and get you.
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Monday, June 2
Yeah, so I do remember a lot about Saterday night, but I don't remember getting sick anywhere except in a pitcher and in the bathroom. Someone please tell me I didn't make a huge mess, and If I did, I'm soooooo sorry. I'll make you cookies, promise.
And yeah, that had to have been the worst pick up line in the history of pick up lines. I'm just proud that I could have been there to shoot that poor guy down. Does that make me bad?
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6/02/2003 10:10:00 p.m. ]
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Sunday, June 1
yep. It was a drunken one.
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