-Lost in the woods-
______________

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

   Thursday, July 31  

I'm so completely dissapointed
How can someone who ment so much to me for such a long time, and I thought felt at least a bit along the same lines, just wipe me off the face of existance? Not even the least bit of wonder about me, no intention of keeping his word, nothing. Should I have expected better? Fool me, I did.

   [ posted by T~ @ 7/31/2003 12:21:00 a.m. ] [ ]

Tuesday, July 29

What is so hard about letting me do things my way?
I've moved out. And if any of you have noticed, i'm supprisingly more chipper than I have been in a superbly long time. I'm not spending all my time being drunk or having promiscuos (sp?) sex, I'm going to work and making money, and I'm being fairly responsible all at the same time. Or at least I think so anyway. Now, my mother calls me up to let me know that i've got some mail to pick up, and just goes off the handle telling me that I should still be living home, that I had it super easy, that I wasn't paying for anything that I am now and that I don't need a student loan, that I'm wasting money. Also informs me that all the things that they've given me over the past four months have all been recorded on a little tab that they've been keeping, including any gifts. Then she started nagging about all the things I didn't do, like clean my cat twice a day, keep my room militarily clean, bla-blah blah blah. Now, I don't know about you, but that doesn't really convince me that I've made some sort of terrible mistake in putting some sort of distance between me and that house. I'm twenty one. I'm legaly an adult. I'd like a taste of that responsibility before I become so old that there's something wrong with me for not already have moved out. So maybe this could lead me on a road that's not paved in rose petals, but for god sake, let me find out for myself, let me make a mistake on my own and get out of it, I have before, why wouldn't I be able to do it now? Other people have survived worse disasters, and I am a strong enough person to recover. I'm not my brother, and even he's not doing so terribly. Damn.

   [ posted by T~ @ 7/29/2003 11:47:00 p.m. ] [ ]

Friggin Awesome!!!
I can't believe I FINALLY got internet in my room! rock on . Mark's awesome. Maybe. Yes Janelle, I do miss you, it was a many someone'd note. and girl stuff does have to potential for happening, we'll have to plan it. Gotta go eat Mussels! Yay!

   [ posted by T~ @ 7/29/2003 05:54:00 p.m. ] [ ]

Monday, July 28

I miss someone.

   [ posted by T~ @ 7/28/2003 02:24:00 p.m. ] [ ]

Saturday, July 26

Innnteresting.
Quite the night. I saw lots of people out, and I think that Hannah seemed to have a good night. Had a lovely conversation with a wonderful girl named Carla, who just so happens to be in the same X-club as I. Special note to a certain friend of mine: that's one avenue that should definitely be revisited when you come home. An awful long walk home, one that was made once before all the way back to queen street, but with a completely different destination. That's all for tonight, time to collect the drunken adam from the street. Out

   [ posted by T~ @ 7/26/2003 02:52:00 a.m. ] [ ]

Friday, July 25

Go Hannah, it's ya birthday, we gonna party like it's ya birthday!
Glad that I got an invite, I'll be there with bells on! Super happy birthday to you!

   [ posted by T~ @ 7/25/2003 06:26:00 p.m. ] [ ]

Thursday, July 24

I just read the funniest stuff ever. You now need to go and read this and understand what had me laugh so hard at work that people were giving me dirty looks.

   [ posted by T~ @ 7/24/2003 08:30:00 p.m. ] [ ]

Wednesday, July 23

You are a LAID-BACK VIRGIN.


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Wow, the things you can find out about yourself on the internet

   [ posted by T~ @ 7/23/2003 11:28:00 a.m. ] [ ]

I've had the best day that's been had in the longest while
I think that I want to learn how to play the guitar. I have the guitar, it's just kinda crappy, and I want to know how to play Great Big Sea songs. The waves were awesome at work today, and all the people on the boat were lovin it. People are right, my job is pretty cool, and I'm having fun, so that's a pretty decent change from the norm.
All my fish are here now! I'm excited because that's almost the last thing that I needed to move to make this my home. I really feel like I really live here now, all I need now is Poe and I'll be all set. Soon, soon. It may also help to get a stove that works, but I won't knock it.

   [ posted by T~ @ 7/23/2003 01:35:00 a.m. ] [ ]

Sunday, July 20

Wow. I made it home at 6, slept for a few hours, then whent and had quite a good day of work. Decent.
By the way, someone stole Natasha's sleeping bag, and she'd really like it back please. It's navy blue with a beige stripe and a plad inside. If you have it or know someone who took it, please let me or her know. Thanks guys.

   [ posted by T~ @ 7/20/2003 10:19:00 p.m. ] [ ]

Friday, July 18

Holy Crap
Last night was awesome. Janelle, you rock my world. I'm so glad I convinced you that you had to come out, because I was to chicken to go find everyone else alone. And to everyone else that was out, you guys are irreplacable. I haven't had that much fun at Myron's since.... hey, I never have fun at Morons. And the topper was getting 20$ shoved down my bra, and going home with two hansome fellas ;p ! I was still smiling about it this morning, and when people asked why all I could do was laugh at them.
I hope everyone's up for some hardcore toga action tomorrow night, it's going to kick some bloomin' point butt! Gotta go, the waves are calling my name....

   [ posted by T~ @ 7/18/2003 11:46:00 a.m. ] [ ]

Wednesday, July 16

Jon thinks that I'm vindictive. I don't think so. I think it's just the kind of satisfaction karma brings about when you try your best to be honest and trust people, giving them every opportunity to prove themselves worthy and then they shove it in your face by doing the thing that you've let them know will hurt you the most. I think I believe in karma, and I think I'll follow through with it as it seems to be working for me.
And I fully intend to dance under the moon in a toga on saterday night.

   [ posted by T~ @ 7/16/2003 12:26:00 a.m. ] [ ]

Sunday, July 13

My brain's not working right now, check back later.
True quote. Made by me. I think I need some sleep and a change of life.

   [ posted by T~ @ 7/13/2003 11:37:00 p.m. ] [ ]

Saturday, July 12

Lesson 1: Things that are not cool to do.
For our first lesson, we will discuss something that should never even be considered. Hitting on your Ex's friend while her other friends are sitting nearby and watching your actions with that friend. This is something that is not cool to do. End of lesson one.

   [ posted by T~ @ 7/12/2003 02:26:00 a.m. ] [ ]

Wednesday, July 9

It all just feels a little too stale
That's a feeling I've had lately. At least I have internet and no longer feel like I'm completely invisible.
It seems like my new and fantastic roomates have some parties planned for the weekend, a staff party is in the works, and I work days all weekend, which I have been told is absolutely no excuse. I feel it is, although there may end up being a break in the whole not going to drink really for the rest of summer for my own good plan I had. Well, whatever happens, I hope I'm up for some much needed fun this weekend. Hopefully I'll see some of you out there!

   [ posted by T~ @ 7/09/2003 10:09:00 a.m. ] [ ]

Tuesday, July 8

I'm out of the house
If you hadn't already figured, but you probably did. And by the end of the day we'll have a phone too. If you'd like the number, you can call my other phone or you could even e-mail me.

Speaking of which, it's nice to know I'm not even worth getting back to.

   [ posted by T~ @ 7/08/2003 01:56:00 p.m. ] [ ]

Saturday, July 5

Finally got out tonight
Feels like it was the first time in ages. Saw a lot of people that I haven't seen in a while, and talked with most of them. Most, but unfortunately not all. It was nice to kinda mellow out in front of the fire and listen to Scott play crazy made up songs. I hope I really do follow up on all of the "we're going for coffee" invites. I hope I get the chance to go to more bbq/fireside times. Kudos to Sarah for being a supreme hostess, you rock chick.

   [ posted by T~ @ 7/05/2003 01:07:00 a.m. ] [ ]

Thursday, July 3

Today wasn't a very nice day.
Weather, as well as most other things. But into every life, some rain must fall. At least I've got a really nice umbrella. And my raincoat kicks ass.

   [ posted by T~ @ 7/03/2003 05:36:00 p.m. ] [ ]

Wednesday, July 2

So I drove home from work tonight on my bike. It probably wasn't safe, but my options were limited. I kind of wish that I had someone that would tell me off and not let me bike home in the dark, but I guess that's not going to happen.
Biking alone in the dark does give me some time though. I've lost about 10 pounds in the last little while, probably because I don't get the time to eat, and I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. That's not usually a good thing, but I've come to a few conclusions.
~I'm my own person and I like that. I don't really need the approval of others, even if it's nice to hear it sometimes, and I'm someone I'm ok to be alone with. There's a lot to me even if some don't look that far under the surface, I'm a pretty good package alltogether. Maybe I'm a bit of a loner, but I'm ok if I'm not surrounded all of the time or have plans for every minute of the day. I like to think that my friends like to have me around, and I like the people that I hang out with. I think they're quality people who have a spark in them that sets them aside from the other people in the world that remain faceless.
~I have plans for my life. If you asked me to write them on a sheet of paper, I may not be able to do it, but I know the kind of person I am, the kind of person I wish to become, and how I'm going to get from here to there. It'll be my own little odyssey that is what will make my life worthwile. My plan is for me, and while it will involve many people I care or will care about, it's not dependent on anyone else or the decisions that they feel I should make.
~ When I care for people, I let them know I do. I don't sugar coat it, I don't lead people astray. I'll always be there for people I care for, even when they aren't asking or looking for it. I like to think I'm open enough that anyone can talk to me about anything, and they usually do. I'm honored that people feel that I'm trustworthy, and I respect them in return.
~While other people change and treat me differently, or not even at all, I'm still here, I'll always be here, wherever it is I am. That may be small comfort to me when I feel like some people make me feel, but it's comfort enough to know that while they may not be constant I will be. When I tell people that they mean a lot to me and that I'm glad they are a part of my life, I mean it, and I wouldn't do things that I feel could cause them pain. I'm always going to be Tamsyn, nothing that can ever happen will change that, and there's only one of me.

   [ posted by T~ @ 7/02/2003 01:13:00 a.m. ] [ ]

Tuesday, July 1

The great phone mystery
Someone was calling me on my phone today, and they just kept missing me. It was infuriating, and I can't figure out who it was. If it was you, let me know. Solve the mystery.

In other news, I'm apparently still invisible, but if anyone is downtown tommorrow afternoon (and I know you all will be, so this means you), stop by the shop and talk to me. I"ll be there or on my boat, but I'd really like to see you

   [ posted by T~ @ 7/01/2003 12:18:00 a.m. ] [ ]