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 Saturday, September 27
Yay for pub crawls
Yeah, I thought that last night's pub crawl was pretty good. Congrats to the girls for throwing one heck of a party. And I came home with that wonderful little fluttery feeling in my tummy, and I still have it today. No, I'm not talking about indigestion.
In other not so very happy in the least news, some strange affliction has overcome my big-fish tank, and they seem to be not so healthy anymore, dying even! I've flushed one and my favorite one may be the next to go. Maybe even Ferril too! I may be upset. More to follow.
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He has pretty eyes. ;)
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Friday, September 26
Song of the night
I Love Myself Today
You left me like a broken doll
In pieces as I took the fall
for you, you dumb chump!
You left me free-falling like space junk
Burning up in the atmosphere of life
Well I sound like a philosopher
but I'm a fool who's off her rocker
'Cause I let you in my heart that one last time
I've had enough, made up my mind
I'm gonna get up and out and wahhh!
I love myself today
Not like yesterday
I'm cool, I'm calm
I'm gonna be okay! Uh huh
I love myself today
Not like yesterday
Take another look at me now
'Cause it's your last look
Your last look forever
Well look at you you're all puffed up
In that big red truck- but you're outta luck (this time)
Well, that's tough
'Cause I'm on fire- too hot to touch
with a chatroom full of lovers on the line
Gonna step right up. Spit shine my soul
I'm gonna be proud and loud and outta control!
I love myself today
Not like yesterday
I'm cool, I'm calm
I'm gonna be okay! Uh huh
I love myself today
Not like yesterday
Take another look at me now
'Cause it's your last look
Your last look forever
I'm lookin' in the mirror and I like what I see:
I've lost the fear & the horror that's been eating at me
'Cause being with you is like a hangman's noose
I was living my life in dead man's shoes
I've had enough. Made up my mind
I'm gonna get up and out and wahhh!
I love myself today
Not like yesterday
I'm cool, I'm calm
I'm gonna be okay! Uh huh
I love myself today
Not like yesterday
Take another look at me now
I love myself today
Not like yesterday
You're dead and gone
I'm gonna get my way
I love myself today
Not like yesterday
Take another look at me now
'Cause it's your last look
Your last look forever!!
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Wednesday, September 24
*Edited to a better place*
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Tuesday, September 23
mmmmmm
I think I've found my new favorite commercial. Have you seen the gap one with the broken in jeans and the guy running home through the rain with "tempted by the fruit of another" playing? That guy has the damn finest ass I've seen in a looong time. Ladies, I strongly recomend you pause to pay hommage when this commercial comes on.
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Super douper double birthday!!
Happy birthday to both Bob and to nephew Zachary!! Yay to both of you for being born!
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Sunday, September 21
Better day
You're not a part of my life anymore. It was your choice. You do get what you want. I don't think I'd change it.
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Saturday, September 20
'cos I'm the monkey
Genious. Such simple things make me laugh.
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Friday, September 19
You won't catch me lickin' no rocks
So I didn't quite make it all the way out tonight, but I did meet some interesting girls and had some eye opening experiences. I didn't get scared out of going out, I just made the decision not to go because really people, Myrons sucks. Sometimes I see people that I like there, but far more often I see some odd people that shame me to be an islander that are out skanking it up so they can make some redneck jelous enough to start swinging at someone. I like my bar better, and I know that the people that are kicking out the rednecks are still enjoying their job and not just there because they're thugs. Well, most of them anyway. And I don't think that all our servers are skinny bimbo's that act like they hate you all the time.
The late night walking is always fun. I only had one guy try to lure me into his house for a party, but he was sober and fairly hansome, so I won't call the night a complete failure. It's nice to be out in weather like this with a bit of breeze. It makes it easier to walk and think.
I still don't know where I got two mystery bruises on my leg from the other night. I think this one....I'll blame on Moira.
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Wednesday, September 17
Coward
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9/17/2003 06:23:00 p.m. ]
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I don't think I can do this anymore. I really don't want to. I hate feeling like I have to hide or avoid people in my bar or on my campus, and mostly just to keep others happy. It's completely not worth it.
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Tuesday, September 16
So another day down.
Another day down and one more day closer to.....? I really can't think of anything to put there that doesn't sound depressing, so I won't put it there at all. I dislike this humid summerlike weather. It's just such a tease. I know that summer's not comming back, and I'm lookin forward to some nice crisp autumny weather when my hair doesn't friz and I can wear sweaters without sweating to death. Change in seasons, change in perspectives.
I'm kinda looking forward to the wonderful time of year when the guys all start to wear really nice sweaters. Really boys, there's nothing hotter than a guy wearing jeans and a wicked sweater that you can just see yourself cuddled up with. If you need assistance in the sweater shopping department, I'm your girl. That's what I'm here for.
Yet another day has been survived, and I do feel a little bit better. Just a little, and I'm probably still not headed in the right direction, you know, unreleased anger and all, but I'll just figure it out as I go along. I'm sure I will. I guess I just have to.
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So when do we get to the good stuff?
*begin rant*
I'm just so tired of all this shit. I feel like I'm waiting for all of this little crappyness to end and the happiness to come back. I haven't been happy, I mean really happy, for a really long time now. I remember what it felt like, and I just can't seem to catch it again. It comes back sometimes, more so now than in a loooong time. I think that some fairly significant life changes and some really kick ass friends are pretty much responsible for that. But there still seems to be something that's wrapped around my ankle dragging me towards the bottom. I know that I can keep my head above water if I try, but sometimes it just gets to be pretty hard. Sometimes I think I need to hold my breath and sit down on the bottom and talk with the starfish for a little while before going back up for air. I really need to find some way to get rid of this lead weight holding me down. I think it would be much easier to breathe then.
*end rant*
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Monday, September 15
Well, at lest that's out of my system.
It was like the last speed bump on your way out of the parking lot. I feel better, and I'm kinda laughing. I know that I deserve better, there's far better out there for me, and I know I'll find it. Whatever happens with other people is of their own affair, I just hope that they can have the common decency to not shove it in my face to be hurtful.
In far, far more fun and exciting news, Chicken had kittens!! Congrats to the happy kitty and owner.
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Sunday, September 14
If you could see me, I'd be laughing.
What are you thinking?!? Screwed up in so many ways. Am I really so scary it merits sneaking out the back door? I guess so. Darn that big bad scary Tamsyn. Why would I go psycho on anyone, seeing as I never have? Maybe if I was lied to, betrayed, and avoided like I did something wrong. Oh wait! All of the above and a whole lot more. I can't even think about it anymore it's so stupid. Thank god for the fact that I'm not that kind of person, and thank god for the friends that I have that look after me and look out for me. And thank you Thomas.
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Saturday, September 13
Wow.
Well, I could write some crazy upset post, but know what? I'm really not. I'm actually kind of glad in some fucked up way. All of the lies, finished up with the last thing you promised you wouldn't do. Does it suprize me? Hell no, I learned a long time not to expect anything at all, even when it was promised, because all that was going to happen was that I was going to be let down.
What I really still don't understand, and probably never will, is how you can completely shit on someone who was always there for you and cared about you more than most people in your life will. I see it all the time at the bar, not just in my life. My friends, and you know who you are, I hope that I never turn into a person that treats people that I care for like that. If I do, shoot me, because that's not the kind of person I want to be.
I feel a lot more free than I have in a long time.
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Thursday, September 11
Today I saved a pigeon
It was a good thing, but I fear that the pigeon was a bit too far gone, or had some kind of water related injury, but spencer did try to take care of it. Yay for spencer. I scooped it out of the water where it was waterlogged and trying to fly away, but couldn't. Some lady called me Miss and told me I did a good deed, and gave me some nice smelling hand sanitizer to kill the pigeon parasites. And I saved a fish that some guy was just leaving in the bottom of the tank to die. I think that that's a pretty good rescue schedule for today. I wonder who I'll save tomorrow...
In other news, I now have a ticket to the keiths fest!! You must all go out and win one too, it'll be a blast!! we can go and drink and party. It'll be fun.
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Sunday, September 7
Now that was f'n amusing
I can't believe you left Brodie, they actually drew your name for the raft. Then they drew mine, but I couldn't win it because I work there. It was kind of weird though, one of the guys kept starring at me because he didn't even recognize me. Apparently, when I put very little effort into my "look", people take notice that I look very nice tonight. I just can't win. Ah well, it would have been pretty decent, but I was absolutely fozen. Giv'er.
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Tuesday, September 2
But that was then
I'm remembering now how much shit I put up with from you that you'll never even think to recall. I'm glad that you're not in my life anymore because I was and I am stronger and better than that person you made me. I'm ready for a new sheet of paper now, and your name's not on it anywhere.
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Monday, September 1
Wow. My last double shift of the summer.
It's officially over. I wrote September 1st for the first time today, and it was a little summer. When I look back on it, summer wasn't so bad after all; I got to go to some kick ass parties with my friends, I moved into a new place all by my lonesome with some pretty cool people, and I actually survived being...by myself. Who'd a thunk I could do it? I worked far too much, and really don't have the money to show for it, but hey, that's life, isn't it? So far, the fall's shapping up to be not to shabby, lot's of things to see and people to do, and work at the wave shouldn't be to bad, as long as I get some shifts. I'll keep y'all posted. Later.
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