You are a lovely tree
I feel like exploding.
Not in anger or anything like that, just that's the way I'm feeling right now. Every breath I take feels like a ten pound weight pressing down on my lungs and it's not just because I'm sick. The day went fine, it was my first day of work, which of course, was not actually my work, it was planting trees, which was kind of interesting, we learned how to do it the right way. Then work at the other place, which was fun because it was with the new girl who seems very nice, if a little quiet. And then the day started to turn a little bit. I threw out the balance in my inner ear because of my head cold so I felt like throwing up and falling over at the exact same time. Luckily, it only lasted about ten minutes, and mom rescued the situation. Then I call home to find out any details about finding myself some transportation for the summer, or possibly longer, and a figure of 14,000$ comes up. Not unreasonable for a bran-spankin new car, but I didn't necessarily want one, and it makes me feel like I've been punched in the stomach and my intestines want to come out my nose. Needless to say, I'm none too keen on putting that much money into something that will be worth less in five years than I would still be paying for it,or it could just be destroyed in an accident. I seem to have very few options that are looking really happy right now. So much that I can't afford, so much that I need to do. I've only been working one day full time, I can't believe I'm stressed out this much already. Not a good sign. Here's hoping for a better situation tomorrow.
Friday, June 11
