I'm so completely broadsided. I didn't see it coming at all. You always know that it could happen, that one of those pillars that have been around forever will inevitably falter and you'll have to deal with the loss, be grateful for what you had, and move on while that empty hole still gapes painfully in your side. To have two of them gone in 4 days is just a bit much. Yeah yeah, it's just a dog, it's just a horse. If that's all they are to you in your life, you'd never understand. They were in my life longer than most friends I now have, through so many parts of becoming me. Unconditionally faithful, the silent listener whenever I needed it, and an unjudging companion that would always take my side. They were more, they were family. Irreplaceable. Am I being dramatic? Probably. I'm upset. That's the way things go though. I look at the one left and she looks back and I know that it's just the way it is, dwelling on it is painful and unneeded. I still have pillars that are my family and friends that surround me, more will come, and more will fall. It still hurts in the meantime though.
Thursday, February 16
